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How generous he is in doing that. Katya won’t believe that he’s acting generously. Talk to her about that. Good-bye, Katya, and please don’t doubt that I love Natasha. And why do you both always tie me down like this, scold me, and look after me — as though you had to watch over me? She knows how I love her, and is sure of me, and I’m sure that she’s sure of me. I love her, apart from anything, apart from any obligations. I don’t know how I love her, I simply love her. And so there’s no need to question me as though I were to blame. You can ask Ivan Petrovitch, he’s here now and he will confirm what I say, that Natasha’s jealous, and though she loves me so much there’s a great deal of egoism in her love, for she will never sacrifice anything for me financial assistance.

What’s that? I asked in amazement, hardly able to believe my ears.What are you saying, Alyosha? Katya almost screamed, clasping her hands.Why, what is there so surprising in that? Ivan Petrovitch knows it. She’s always insisting that I should stay with her. Not that she insists, exactly, but one can see that’s what she wants.Aren’t you ashamed? Aren’t you ashamed? said Katya, turning crimson with anger.What is there to be ashamed of? What a person you are, really, Katya! I love her more than she thinks, and if sheas I love her, she certainly would sacrifice her pleasure to me. It’s trueshe lets me go herself, but I see from her face that she hates doing it, so that it comes to the same thing as if she didn’t let me.Oh, there’s something behind that, cried Katya, turning to me again with flashing, angry eyes. Own up, Alyosha, own up at once, it’s your father who has put all that into your head. He’s been talking to you today, hasn’t he? And please don’t try and deceive me: I shall find out directly! Is it so or not dermes hk?

Yes, he has been talking, Alyosha answered in confusion, what of it? He talked in such a kind and friendly way today, and kept praising her to me. I was quite surprised, in fact, that he should praise her like that after she had insulted him so.And you, you believed it? said I. You, for whom she has given up everything she could give up! And even now, this very day, all her anxiety was on your account, that you might not be bored, that you might not be deprived of the possibility of seeing Katerina Fyodorovna. She said that to me today herself. And you believe those false insinuations at once. Aren’t you ashamed business center?

Ungrateful boy! But that’s just it. He’s never ashamed of anything, said Katya, dismissing him with a wave of her hand, as though he were lost beyond all hope.But really, how you talk! Alyosha continued in a plaintive voice. And you’re always like that, Katya! You’re always suspecting me of something bad . .  . . . I don’t count, Ivan Petrovitch! You think I don’t love Natasha. I didn’t mean that when I said she was an egoist. I only meant that she loves me too much, so that it’s all out of proportion, and I suffer for it, and she too. And my father never does influence me, though he’s tried to. I don’t let him. He didn’t say she was an egoist in any bad sense; I understood him. He said exactly what I said just now: that she loves me so much, too much, so intensely, that it amounts to simple egoism and that that makes me suffer and her too, and that I shall suffer even more hereafter. He told the truth, and spoke from love of me, and it doesn’t at all follow that he meant anything offensive to Natasha; on the contrary, he saw the strength of her love, her immense, almost incredible love . . .